conscience

 They told “ She has some problems “ They said “She is not good enough “ They pointed at her “ That lady is different “ They added “ She is not anymore capable “ She is not a complete women,  useless    waste,  helpless,    unhealthy. And they kept her in a corner of the house, then in a kitchen as cleaner and finally she had to leave because they found a new person with some new magical powers which they said she never had...🙁 Unfortunately, she had to go back... No one heard her inner cry... No one understood what she went through.. Nobody cared what she wanted to tell.. Nobody bothered even to look at her side...😢 All they knew was just a word “ she has some really bad problem” and they told her to go home when they got a replacement...!!   And she lived a life of a cursed angel ... and she dies as a unread- unopened BOOK 📚. I want to tell THEM - you were completely wrong,  you were utterly ruthless,  you were ridiculous you are an...

  It was long since I started staring at aeroplanes ( ബീമാനം  in my words ).. I think I was with my siblings in mud and stones- were we    all turned around towards that beautiful fly with heavy noice... I never stopped looking at it even at the middle of noon where sun stands right over your head -  I kept looking at it closing one eye to manage those sun-rays falling on to your cornea - making you blind, and at times I switched the eye to manage the strain of those rays Every time we stopped the game , just to follow that big bird flying  Nothing bothered me watching it , even if it was at the middle of school assembly, just a quick flick to stare.... Every time I saw the bird- thought soon a day I will fly in or at least would see in front. But days went away .. moved from LP school to UP school.. nothing changed..  One day ..went to pick up my uncle who was coming from Muscut to Calicut,at calicut airport .in fact - it was not to see uncle rather t...

I moved to a new shared house recently.. New place- new people- new rooms - new steps and everything looked fresh to my eyes ... In 3-4 days , manage to settle, cleaned room and toilet , placed my things, found slots in fridge, kept spices on shelf .... All good As usual, was having dinner - happened to notice a guy sitting over the corner of the room - very thin , tired , emasculated ,thirsty,almost grounded , hands and head already down...!! - that was a plant 🌱 “I don’t know who bought him” As I was filling my tummy , thought it would be inhumane not to give him something, decided to water him a bit... (I had a second thought before watering him - he is almost dead - why to water him) but anyway.. I did The very next day , enquired about him - unfortunately, nobody knew him and it sounded like no one cared him- also, he was a Gift 🎁 of past tenant... they don’t live here anymore....!!! It happened.... Every time I sat to fill my tummy- this guy kept looking at me 👀.. my inner fee...

Yes.. It do It was my dream to put those tight belts all over me and walk like a zombie  🧟‍♂️   It was my dream to step in to the sky-jet  🛩   It was my dream to witness the take off and feel it on my butts  🛫   It was my dream to buckle up  the chains, pull your goggle  It was my dream to sit on the step, and watch the space that even birds would dare to come up  🃏 It was my ultimate dream just to Jump down to the earth by keeping my mouth wide open, screaming loud as I could, listening to the pressure of the wind  🪂   Where you hear  heart beats... One by one...  ♥️ .. ♥️ .. ♥️ .. ♥️ like a drumm, like a lovely music that would drag you to sleep...  💤   And to do the crazy stunds on air, take turns like an eagle, stare at the horizon where the sky meet the earth  🌍   And finally Land on your butt ♥️💐 Beautiful.. ♥️  is nt..?? Em not saying, I did something impossible.. No, its nothing gre...

ജീവിതത്തിൽ എവിടെല്ലാം പറന്ന് എത്തിയാലും .. എന്നും മനസ്സിൽ സന്ദോഷം തന്ന സ്ഥലങ്ങളിൽ ഒന്ന് ഈ മുറ്റവും പാടവും  പുഴയും പൂന്തോട്ടവും ബഞ്ചുകളും മേശകളും തന്നെയായിരുന്നു...!! ഇന്ന് ഞാൻ പറയുന്ന ഓരോ വാക്കുകകളും എഴുതുന്ന ഓരോ അക്ഷരങ്ങളും ,കൂട്ടുന്ന കണക്കുകളും  എല്ലാം എന്റെ മഷിന്റേം ടീച്ചർടേം കഴിവാണെന്നതിൽ അഭിമാനം കൊള്ളുന്നു. ഇന്ന് ഞാൻ എഴുതിയ പല ബ്ലോഗുകളും -അന്ന് എന്റെ മാഷ്‌ പഠിപ്പിച്ച കേട്ടെഴുതുകൾ ആയിരിന്നു.  ഇന്ന് ഞാൻ സംസാരിച്ച പല വാക്കുകളും - അന്ന് എന്റെ ടീച്ചർ ചൊല്ലിച്ച പ്രസംഗങ്ങൾ ആയിരുന്നു . ഇന്ന് ഞാൻ ബ്രിടീഷുകാരോട് സംസാരിച്ചെതെല്ലാം  - അന്നെന്റെ പ്രിൻസ് മാഷ്‌ പഠിപ്പിച്ച ABCD ആയിരുന്നു . ഡൽഹിയിലെ ഹിന്ദി എളുപ്പമാക്കി തന്നത് -അന്ന് സതീഷ് മാഷെന്നെ പഠിപ്പിച്ച ഹിന്ദി ആയിരുന്നു . ഇന്ന് ഞാൻ മനുഷ്യശരീരത്തിന്റെ അകം കാണുന്നുണ്ട് എങ്കിൽ  -അതെല്ലാം അന്ന് മോഹൻ മാഷ് കാണിച്ചു തന്ന ചെമ്പരത്തി പൂവിന്റെ ചേതത്തിൽ തുടങ്ങിയതായിരുന്നു . മറക്കാനാവാത്ത ഓർമ്മകൾ തന്ന അശോകൻ മാഷും  കഥകളും പാട്ടുകളും കൊണ്ട് നിറഞ്ഞ ലത്തീഫ്‌ മാഷന്റെ അറബിക് ക്ലാസും  സ്നേഹത്തോടെ സംസാരിക്കുന്ന രഘു മാഷും  ശ...

As most of you, I was also born in a middle class family of 5 children, 4th in order and blessed with to have lovely parents and siblings around. It all went really cool until father passed away while I was 3 years old but Blessed to have a strong lady who is taking care of us perfectly till today. Unfortunately, we lost our sister aysha-soon after birth which was not far after father left us.My lady had the worst heartbreaks those days. Days passed, we slowly started growing up under the hands of grand parents, uncles and good poeple, I have 2 elder brothers , both of them moved to the My MAGIC PLACE for studies. Finally, that day came in for me also to leave home and join the magic place for studies.It was a terrible feeling to leave your loved once back home and move forward- Destiny. I joined that place 2007(8th std), it was completely a different experience , not just for me. Whoever joins new- 1st year is harder, full of students from different parts of the ...

The Gorgeous Delhi Actually it's not Delhi..Its" Dhilli", that is how the natives call this place, I am glad that I could spend 750 days in here with wonderful memories. Today, am leaving this place. Oh sorry...!, I already left exactly at 9:15 am by Mangala-lakshadweep express from hazrat nizamudheen  to kuttippuram when Dr Sai baba , the best of my friends, came over with a dozen biscuits, lunch as well as dinner, beyond all that with his innocent catchy smile, That was really one of the best farewell I got in a Railway station from the only Dr cum IAS friend. These 2 years prepared me well as a perfectly cooked SAMBAR, neatly sliced veggies, appropriately added incrediants, perfect amount of water, adequate duration of heating without forgetting to stir on time to time. Yes.. that life was yummy by the end with all ups and downs. I am sorry If this make you sleepy even by now but I am sure, I had the best out of it, I thought I should make a note & ...